Walking , keeping fit ?
Walking to maintain some fitness I hope !!!
I love seeing what birds are in the creek, as well as the resident seagulls far from any sea !
Black swans are such a delight to watch gliding in a ballet of their own on the water. Pelicans were further along the creek a flock of about 20, dab chicks swim and feed off the duckweed.... and the resident magpies are always busy on land.....then something disturbs the vast flock of corellas and their sound erupts as does that wonderful vision of the flock in flight....
So really it is a distracting walk.....that is I don't notice I have come out for exercise !!!
When I return home I will often do some household chores and then wonder what creativity will I indulge in....
I design wood pieces mostly for creative buttons, which I have laser machined and I paint... around Christmas time my habits change to decorations to paint and hang about for Christmas decorating.
I am also influenced by what I call a French Feel it is mostly something I dream on of what I would find in Paris or in the French Country side.
In recent years I do loads more drawing and painting on watercolour rough heavy paper and love it.
This on many occasions is drawing and painting on calico. ... and other fabric with different weaves, hence different results.
As the Dr said once the genetic marker had been confirmed .."It won't go away. It won't go away "
I understood that bit as I was familiar with genetic markers that stay as in arthritis ....but the rest of it what did that mean and does mean.
In my bone marrow I continually make excess red blood cells and my blood thickens and can clot and cause strokes. But there is NO CURE but maintaining a level of red blood cells in my body is a balancing act and much at this stage monitoring.
I have never had so many blood tests !!!! First this was weekly then fortnightly then I had a bit more blood taken venesection ...and with a chemo drug killing off the red blood cells I am now a bit overdone !
I hate not knowing.
So all this the creative part of me is so alive and so grateful I have stuff I can turn to....as well as beautiful country decorating magazines with amazing stories and hard covered books I have a look in and get over stimulated always and of course I drift into the writings of Danielle Steel.....
I decided to write what brings and has given me resilience over my lifetime...the older one gets the longer that is ! I thought it would be writing this and later acknowledging all later. Some of the tricky bits I have tucked away are now out and written and i have been suddenly learning more of some of the way I am motivated.
Not always nice at first but as it sinks in I think Oh my gosh that is so unique to me or this is why I am so much a bolter when life gets too tough.
I move, I need space from what happens around me, it is one also exciting things I have done for a time. One resets the button in a place of unknown and discovery.
But now this darn disorder is going to not allow that to happen neither is rental rot and my funds....so I stay and the disease stays and I have slowly settled in, in many ways .... not totally and maybe that is just me the bolter who lived a sort of nomadic gypsy life.... one of my ancestors from Devon was a gypsy..but I have not been able to find the ancestor yet. But I like that lifestyle in so many ways.
So I continue to write and it jumps about a bit but I need now to pen some happy times when I began this life into creative stuff and took a stall in a market that grew and I went every month and adored it, the people, the process.....but a frozen shoulder erupted and that was another decision I had to make STOP and I will today as it is late .....the days are short it is winter and the sun is up !
Maybe I will walk but somehow I think not today.
Although before I leave I am so proud of what I am able to do and will do with that determined resiliance I have built !!
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